I don't see any harm with my infatuation in writing. At most I sleep late occasionally. The setback is I miss my exercise routine.
Other than that, the pros outweigh the cons. I don't experience the various burnout symptoms that I experience if I play computer *[c]ame (game) or watching too much TV. Honestly, I feel fine.
* I'm so glad to have you, Sarah.
Nothing for me to worry about. Perhaps it is not normal behavior, but then again I am not a normal person and my life is not normal living.
I feel alive when I write. As I said before, it is therapeutic. Yes, it is an obsession. Nevertheless, I don't experience any drawbacks.
So fuck it then... I will continue writing.
Just like when I write to Els. I feel fine. Again I know it is an obsession. Alas, it makes me feel good.
To a certain degree, it is understandable since I have a mental disorder.
Since I now know of my condition, I stay away from destructive habits like smoking and eating too much sugar.
What can I say? It's not that I can choose *th[at] (the) package that I come in.
* Thank God I have you as my voice of reason Sarah...
What is the lesson here? Welcome to my imperfect life.
You eat too much you have a disorder.
Your talk too much you have a disorder.
You write too much you have a disorder.
You exercise too much you have a disorder.
You THINK too much you have a disorder.
Fuck! So what is not a disorder then? It seems that anything in excess is a disorder.
Anything enjoyable should be in moderation.
Do you know what is the real issue here, Sarah?
I AM AN X-FACTOR!
How do I get away from that?
By design, I am a flamboyant person. I push to the brink. That is me!
Perhaps, what I should be concerned with is to not miss my sleep and exercise.
For that I need discipline. I got to know when to quit when much is too much.
OK, let's establish that I should stop writing and reading by 9:00 pm and sleep by 9:30 pm as my practice in good sleep hygiene.
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