Let's look at the pros and cons. Off the cuff, I say the idea of being in isolation is more beneficial to me than trying to connect with people.
In principle, I am a solitary creature. So to be in isolation is more appealing than to be in a relationship. I want to be in a relationship because I want to love and be loved. If I can't establish that link, I might as well be alone.
That is the setback of reaching out to others. You stand the risk of nonreciprocity. That's what happens to me. I offered my hand but there is no handshake. So what is the sensible thing to do? Pull back my hand.
No need to be nice. Let's move to the next level. That's how the game is played. I cannot get caught up. I have to keep on moving. That is the nature of adaptation. First, you try. Keep on trying your level best. If after you had done your level best and still that is not good enough, just move on.
That's how life works. We have to keep on moving. I know about the Kimberly Diamond Mine story. A nice story for the romantics. In reality that happened to one poor UNLUCKY bastard. For the rest of us, life goes on.
As usual, I follow where the arguments lead. There are always two possibilities *wh[at] (when) we reach a crossroad. Either way will take us somewhere. Thus, in the spirit of discovery, let's see what is behind door number 2.
* Don't sweat it, baby. This is part of the Stoic way of doing things. Think of the worst possible scenario.
Look, I survive the worst. I know for sure this experience will make me wiser if not stronger.
Most importantly I follow my Kigatsuku. I am being true to myself. In the end, my Inner Master intervenes so that I make sense of otherwise nonsense.
Is this also healing? Is this part of the awakening from my withdrawal of the medication?
I certainly am seeing things from a different angle. It might not be a correct perspective but as it is that is what my Inner Master is telling me.
"IT IS A SIMPLE FLOWCHART! Do not make it into something that it is not," yelled Kigatsuku.
Therefore, time for a paradigm shift. I got to change the Cybernetic Loop into a Simple Flowchart.
For that, I need to douse in my Cold Dark Roast.
Brb, Sarah.
-------------------------------------------------------
You know how it goes, Sarah. Everything works in reciprocity. That is the Golden Rule. I[t] (If) there is an EQUAL reaction, then it is worth an effort. If not, I have to change my course.
Much like 24/12/24. I am not here to play a fool like a fool. I am committed. That doesn't mean I have to depend on faith. Everything is very much based on the waves and signals.
Will that mean I end the story? Nope... The story is neverending. As long as I don't reach death, this story will continue as my story.
Take your case for example. How many times did it suppose to end? What brings it back to life? None other than the notion that you and I are yuan fen.
So if this is a neverending story, then for sure it will endure for eternity.
The only thing is the story might go into remission. That doesn't mean the story ends.
As I said, a good story is reciprocal. If it is a monotonous story, then it is not worth being called a story at all.
So I am taking the Apple and No Apple stand. I look from both ends.
The only possibility is if I am no longer follow the storyline. This is not the case. I am only changing the story from a Cybernetic Loop to a Simple Flowchart as I mentioned earlier. What it means is I am still counting on the waves and signals.
You must understand, I am slowly adopting the Stoic Values into my life. I had been wanting to do it for some time already. In hindsight, I am already practicing Stoicism.
mm
No comments:
Post a Comment