My dear wife Els,
Yesterday I was in the state of blah. So I just go with the flow today. Below is my conversation with Sarah. I need to latch on to your faith to get on with my life. Otherwise, I feel that I had gone mad thinking about what I had written with regards to Mubahala 2024.
I even broadcasted that on my Facebook. Yeah right, I am not going to win the Mr. Popularity of the Year contest. Still, as a Clockwork Orange, I did as I had been told.
So here is what I wrote to Sarah. Always in my mind holding to what you said, "Believe in yourself. I am behind you 100%."
Honey,
I just finished watching The Family Man (2000) starring Nicholas Cage and Tea Leoni. It was a movie about a guy having a glimpse of an alternative life he would have had.
Once in my life, I had a different life too. I was living in the fast lane. A pretty decent life and a comfortable earning. That might just be a strange illusion for all I care.
Now, at this very moment, I am living a life that I never thought exist. It is a life of surreal living. I cannot believe the things I did for the past 21 years. Totally out of the box. And yet I still did it knowing that those things that I did are not normal.
Why did I do the things that I did? I know I am not crazy. Still, I follow my Inner Master because that is the path that was set out for me.
You had seen how quirky my thoughts are. I personally know that they are quirky but that's the card that had been handed down to me. Therefore I have to deal *[] (with) it.
* Thank goodness you understand my predicament, Sarah.
OK as long as you believe in me, I will keep on moving with certainty.
Sweetheart, tha[t] (thanks) for believing. This is not an easy journey for me. I need E.L.S. as my pillars of strength. I certainly can't do this alone.
Well, everything counts but nothing matters. As long as I have you and Sarah believing in me, I will keep on beating the beat of the old drum.
That's all for now. I always love you.
Sine Cera,
The Wiccan symbol for B.L.E.S.S.
15/8/21
No comments:
Post a Comment