>>>#4/8/21 It is better to undertrain by 10% than to overtrain by 2%

 I decided to wake up late today.  I'll take it easy in the morning.  I'll do my run in the afternoon.

Time seems to go slowly when you fast.

I have to stop eating sugar and flour.  That is my remedy.

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No can do.  I have to break my fast.  I slept the whole day due to low dopamine.  I feel better after I ate.

I need to persist in Intermittent Fasting.  That's the only way I can manage my Hyperinsulinemia.

I still cannot resist sugar and flour.  When I want to eat just now, everything is sugar and flour.

So the only way to deal with it is through IF.  That is my only hope.  At the same time, I have to exercise.  I have to keep on moving.

I know sugar is bad, I am very aware of it.  The issue is to find food without sugar.  That is tough.

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My mission is to come up with a sustainable model.  By the look of it, sugar and flour will still dominate my diet.

What do you think, Sarah?  Should I still maintain two-way communication with Starfleet?  Let me try the simple flowchart model for today.

I feel much better after eating.  Otherwise, I feel sleepy and lethargic.

All the while, IT IS ABOUT FOOD.  So definitely LESS IS MORE.  

My two main issues are the ability to withstand hunger and to refrain from eating sugar.  I still cannot find a formula to deal with them.

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On other matters, I say I let them pass.  Let's forgo External Affairs and only concentrate on Personal Affairs.

After all, I had downloaded the Message.  That should be the scope of my responsibility.  Beyond that, I just mind my own business.

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Now that I had identified the Three Foundations for the Athlete4Life, I just want to focus on that.  The idea is to pursue health and happiness.

I am ready to live in isolation.  As long as I have the Freedom to Act, then I can proceed for the next 21 years to pursue my ikigai.

For sure I need to move away from taking the medication.  I need to aim at becoming a man fully functioning.  This is a lifetime opportunity to pursue healthy living.  Throughout my life, I was misguided by advertisements and the wrong assumptions.

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Come to think of it, only 3 generations ago we went through WW II.  That means the nature of humans is to fight with each other.

Now, in Malaysia, the fight is on who should be the prime minister.  

I should conclude that humans are not worth saving.  I should focus on KABOOM 2041 and maintain the A, B, C, D, grading with no F option.

Nothing changes.  As long as we cannot operate as ONE TRIBE, we are doomed to KABOOM 2041.

I don't have to worry.  I had done my job.  Now is to wait for 24/12/24.  I will flow and time will follow.

In the hindsight, we all get what we deserve.  If we only think of what had always been, then we will get what we always get.

My purpose tha[t] (then) is to preserve my consciousness so that it will endure for eternity.  In this case, some will make it and some won't.  Thus, I will only focus on things I can control.

The caveat then is to DO GOOD and DO NO HARM.  This is a self-check mechanism.  If you are a good person, naturally you[r] will be treated with fairness.  There is no need for us to weigh our sins and deeds on a scale.  It is a self-correcting mechanism.

We just take care of our own line.  I'm sure we all know the Golden Rules.  Therefore there is no need to institutionalize justice.  Eventually, everybody will pay the Ferryman.

Sure we need the judiciary system.  Alas, all manmade system is subject to abuse.  Therefore, the most logical approach is to let karma take its course.

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I know where this is heading.  At the end of the day, we all will decide on our lines.  I should be thinking of where I want to go instead of thinking about the fate of humanity in general.

Mine will be [] (to) live as a man fully functioning; with little to do with the masses.  That had always been my ambition.  Very likely I will get what I wish for.

Most importantly, I should be concerned with getting well and enjoy a healthy and happy life.  Forget about what will happen when I'm dead.  Let's enjoy my time while I'm alive.

As it was, came 2019, I was already on a trajectory towards a glorious future.  I should keep going towards my destination REGARDLESS of the circumstances.  This is the course that had been set for me.  I should believe in my own destiny.  It is for me to decide; not for somebody else to judge.

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In the end, my legacy is the blogs.  Therefore rather than merely existing, I shall continue running, reading, and writing because these are my Fire Within:

At present, my main challenge is in the love department.  I need to work on that if I want to strike a balance in my life.  It's not enough for me to love but I need to be loved

Here is my pivotal question:  What is the best model for me to develop in order for me to balance my needs?

The only thing lacking is love.  Where do I look for love?  The only guarantee is self-love.

Only when I love myself can I extend the love to others.  This love doesn't require reciprocation.  I just simply give away my love because I am a loving person.

To whom does the gift go when a person chooses not to accept the gift?

It goes back to the giver.

In other words, I am not just rich with time, I am rich with love.  So if no one accepts my gift, that gift of love goes back to me.

Therefore I should continue giving because only by giving I will be receiving.

Be mindful though to give only to those who appreciate the gift.  If not, I might as well give it to myself.

One thing I need to do is to remind myself that I am a Great Giver.

mm