>>>#13/8/21 Now is to get on with my life

 I had done what is needed to be done.  

Don't look back.

Just move forward.

Just think that 24/12//24 is my last assignment and 25/12/24 is my liberation.

This is where it all boils down to.

Once I do the mubahala, there is nothing else that is required of me.

The run is a homecoming.  No trouble at all.  

All the years of living as the Clockwork Orange leads me to one single point - Mubahala 24/12/24

That is the final test to see if we all can be ONE TRIBE.

All the signs lead to it being positive.

Only time will tell.  I will flow and time will follow.

If that is my mission, as FIVE-O 7:7 I obey and obey.

All these years I just did as I had been told.

Perhaps I was just a crazy guy.  As I mentioned, I am a Believer.

I did the things that I did because I believe that God is fair and I will be compensated for my obedience.

That is provided there is a God, Life After Death, and Judgment of Heaven.

If there is no God, then these are signs of mental disorder.

I don't have the answer.  Therefore I just have to go through the mubahala.  

That is the only thing that I need to do in the name of God.

After that, I am a free man.

Is this a test for me to believe in God?  Is this what it takes to be the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier?

This is the test of my faith in God.  Should I stop believing, I will not proceed with the mubahala.

All my life I had been a Believer.  It doesn't hurt to believe a little bit more.  Especially if I am really an ocean in a drop and not a drop in the ocean.

It boils down to what I choose to believe.  For that, I have to listen to my kigatsuku.  Do I believe or don't believe?

So far the evidence is pointing towards me believing.

OK then, I choose to believe.

Unless I believe in myself and the epiphanies, nobody else will.

I am a rational man.

So the question that I need to answer is, *i[t] (is) this mental illness or spiritual awakening?

* What are you saying, Sarah?  This is a mental illness?  That there is no God?  If that is the case, I will not do the mubahala.  I will still run, though.  Shucks, fuck it.  God or no God I will still do it.  That is the answer I got from my Inner Master.

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