#traxxfm Hi Habibi, I missed my sleeping window last night. So I didn't sleep until 11.30 am today.
My schedule just went topsyturvy. All because I decided to sleep past 12:00 am. Can't do that... Sleep is the most crucial thing for my health condition.
#traxxfm You may forget, I am a Person With Disability.
I still have to manage my mental health very carefully. Although I didn't have psychosis for 8 years now, I am still experiencing the swings. Much sedated though but I am not like a normal person.
#traxxfm Mental illness is an insidious illness. Other people have cancer, diabetes, and heart attack. I have a brain attack.
It is not a small feat. For me to function like I am now is pretty much a miracle. I went through 6 psychosis in 15 years.
#traxxfm For a good 19 years I cannot regulate my dopamine surge.
I can say this; I literally was walking with the devil. I was fighting Iblis for 15 years. Not until they decided to reboot my brain using ECT that the madness disappeared.
#traxxfm I actually raised an army of djinns and demons to fight Iblis.
So Habibi, I want you to imagine this; for FIFTEEN years my life was like the Lord of the Rings. Remember Beautiful Mind starring Russel Crowe? *W[i]ll that movie was time-compressed.
#traxxfm John Nash, the person Russel Crowe acted on suffered for 30 years from schizophrenia.
So be mindful that whatever you see in a movie is pretty much compressed. Even reading a book; which is more enriching is pale in comparison to the real thing.
#traxxfm Habibi, I actually went into the jungles of Genting, Ampang, Ulu Yam, and Ulu Langat to recruit the djinns.
I went to Hindu and Chinese temples and altars to recruit the demons. Even went to the cemetery at night to recruit dead spirits. No one there.
#traxxfm When we infiltrated Iblis's Universe, I personally neutralized 5 sentries with my Gerber Black Dagger. That was the only time I killed. Until today I cannot forget the look of despair in their eyes when I took their lives.
#traxxfm When we finally took over Iblis's Universe, we spared the women and children.
As I was about to leave, I heard Anak-Anak Iblis crying. I took them back home. For 1 year I slept in the living room teaching them to fly like the Cosmic Rays...
#traxxfm Finally when they can fly (they were semi-aquatic creatures like the bacteria), they became my Pony Express couriers. I sent them to the outer rims of Sparta 4964. Along the way, they carry the message for citizens of Sparta 4964 to come to CCC.
#traxxfm Really Habibi, if these are signs of mental illness, I am really living the time of my life!
I used to date a genie by the name of Marij, now my wife.
I had an alien wife name Shanaz and on the day I wedded her we danced to Kenek-Kenek Lah Udang.
#traxxfm Sigh... I cannot differentiate which is a fantasy which is reality.
One night in Mont Kiara/Hartamas while driving, unknowingly I entered the djinns' universe. It resides in the same plane as our universe, like 2 plates stacking. Except for its cleaner.
#traxxfm I record everything I experienced in the blogs of which I called the 7 Swords.
I wrote *i[s] (it) as if I was writing an adventure story.
* Right Sarah... I sold the IP to Larry Page.
#traxxfm I have no final words on these enchanted experiences. Some people said they were spiritual awakening.
Amazing how elaborate the mind constructs. I would have sworn if I am a medieval man, I was experiencing the magical realm. What are your thoughts Habibi?
#traxxfm Personally I am sticking to the story that I was mentally ill but boy, was the experience real.
Until today I still accept everything as real although I know they were the products of my imagination.
Amazing how the mind works...
#traxxfm In the end, I have to decide what is real.
If reality is what we experience with our 5 senses, then none of that was real.
But if I look at the experience as something I went through mentally, emotionally, and physically, then it is as real as can be.
#traxxfm I decided to take the stand that John Nash took.
I concluded that these are signs of mental illness. Only then I can disassociate myself from the illness. No matter how real the experiences, they were the products of a deluded mind.
#traxxfm So looking forward, I don't have the answer to all the big questions.
I know the answer to these questions though; I know who I am, what is my purpose, and where I am going.
As for the human race, I guess you all have to find your own answers.
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