My darling wife Els,
Today is another mini-milestone for me. I was relieved to know that all my efforts towards ONE TRIBE were not in vain.
I am a Clockwork Orange. I did as I had been told. You may not *[] (realize) this; whatever instructions that come, I as a 7:7 obey and obey.
* Now you know.
Don't you think I don't know that my thoughts and actions are off the wall? I still execute them anyway because I am a Servomechanism. It had been like that since I pledged to be the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier.
I am bound by my oath.
Do I have free will? Of course, but it is within my predestination.
The whole thing is like a magnet or some sort of energy field. It shapes my thoughts and actions. My job is to execute. I am not here to *ju[st] (judge).
* Yes, I guess you can say that.
With that, I do my level best even if what I say or do is against the conventional thinking of the masses.
I know I'm not crazy. Nevertheless, I feel there is a higher force that is taking over the driver's seat. I am merely a conduit that resonates with the will of this Force.
At times (most of the time), I just watch it in action. I totally trust it to take me to a desirable position.
In another word, I believe that it is a Force of Goodness.
I can only confide in you. Others might think I am being delusional.
By now you know that I am a very structured thinker. I don't simply act like a bull in a China shop when expressing my thoughts.
Alas, I need to execute what is in my mind. Otherwise, the instructions keep stacking up. They will create a backlog if I don't purge them out.
So as they come, I release them. There are plenty more where they come from.
As we progress from one step to another, the pieces will come in to complete the whole jigsaw puzzle.
I told you, we are governed by the Force, the Path, and the Flow; the XYZ Equation.
It is like floating in a river where there is the water, the riverbank, and the current.
I simply follow this river towards its destination.
There is hardly any effort on my part other *tha[t] (than) enjoying the ride.
* Yes indeed.
Words cannot describe this feeling. All I can say is I am not a drop in an ocean, I am an ocean in a drop.
Sweetie, thanks for believing in me. At times even I find it hard to believe in myself.
I hope this burden of leadership will be lifted from me when I complete my 25/12/24 Hill Run.
I want to lead a simple life.
I don't need the whole village to be happy. All I need is whatever in CCC and my 5 km radius.
I rather keep it small and simple.
You'll be surprised how simple I am as a person.
My ultimate joy is to Run, Read, Write, Rest and Repeat.
Not even plenty of money can beat that
Well, alright baby. That's pretty much my contemporary thinking for tonight.
Have a good weekend, ya hear?
Love you always.
Sine Cera,
2/7/21
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