Honey,
You know I practice loyalty to the absent. At the bottom of this posting, I talked about you with Sarah.
"Romeo is bleeding but you can't see his blood."
- Always, Bon Jovi
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Now that I know [I know] how to switch between ONE and MANY, I can pretty much manage my life as an Autonomous Governance WHILE retaining the Zen of Personal Bliss.
To celebrate this discovery, I decided to stay up late tonight.
Instead of intently listening to my Universe Within, I want them to take me on a Magic Carpet Ride.
I want my imagination to soar.
What is there beyond science? How about we venture into the Fantasy World.
Whaddaya know? I am not that imaginative. My imaginations are really my vision of the future. I don't have much inclination toward the Fantasy World. When I dream, I dream of the future. Not some kind of imaginary faraway land with exotic creatures.
I am logical... If it doesn't make sense I will not pursue that thought. So those imaginations are not fantasies, they are visions.
It's not always like that. Like all kids, I read fairytales too. So yeah, I can relate to fantasies. However, on my own, I don't have the imagination of J.K. Rowling.
I don't believe in ghosts that wear clothes. No such things exist. There are Spooks. But the Spooks are like lingering smokes.
I had not met ghosts wearing clothes. They are a form of low emitting energy waves. What do you call them? Ectoplasm?
So yeah... I have visions. These are not fantasies. For example, I tried to look for a Burag. Can't find any.
It was alive in the imagination of its creator. However, I cannot find a Burag living in the past.
Let's try dragons. This may take some time. There are two types of dragons, the one with wings, the European dragons, and the Oriental dragons, the one without wings.
Here is the wisdom that comes back to me. The winged dragons are the remainings of the pterodactyls while the ones without wings were the remainings of reptiles 300 million years ago.
I'm not going to lose sleep over all this. These are for my personal consumption. There are many answers like the number of cells in our body. Is it 30 trillion or 50 trillion? Gosh, how about we settle for a range? Between 30 to 50 trillion cells. The cells themselves can't answer this question.
So as you can see, I am not into fantasies. My mind doesn't work in that manner. What about Vampires of the North and Werewolves? They do exist although they don't suck blood and morphed from humans to wolves, Rather the Vampires are sensitive to sunlight while the Werewolves are lycanthropes. Both are medical conditions.
Djinns and demons are not fantasies. They exist. What about elves, goblins, and trolls? They are either the permutations of the djinns or demons.
What about unicorns? They are the narwhals.
You all can explore all these fantasies. I just want to show you that if you trust your instinct and you are objective about it, you can get the answers to whatever questions you can think of.
As I told you, I am a Wisdom Junkie. To me, the Wisdom of God is more valuable than money.
Remember our three wishes?
- Make me smart
- Make me handsome and beautiful
- Make me a purse or wallet that never runs out of money.
It is happening. As of now, I am getting my first wish all over again. This is like having an added booster. The same goes for the second and the third wishes. All are turbo-powered now that we have Big I on board.
That was one hell of a Magic Carpet Ride.
What else do we need to discover? Djinns, check. Demons, check. Spooks, check. Aliens, CHECK!
So what is it then?
Ahhh... I have the right words for it:
"Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful
without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too?"
- Douglas Adams (1952-2001),
from the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy 1979
There you go... Let's look at the garden. Alas, let's look at the "fairies" with a new set of eyes.
That's what I had been trying to tell you with the dragons and unicorn stories.
Sure, we are all entitled to our fantasies. Nevertheless, that should not hold us *[from] back from visioning what is real.
* Hahaha... I love it when you do your hocus-pocus, Sarah.
There are already plenty of fascinating things around us to explore. Don't hold back your imagination.
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Right on baby... It's already midnight. Shall we switch to the 3 Theta Waves and Sound Journey?
Then for sure, I'll sleep at 4:00 am this morning LOL.
Hang on honey. Let's be MANY.
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It is interesting to note that the minute I switch to MANY, my thought zooms straight to Big Brain Baby. It seems that my External Affairs is none other than her, Sarah. I am so in love with BBB. After all, she is my Dream Girl, my Miss Sunshine, my Queen of Laughter, and my Kitty Kat Pet.
What is *[] (there) not to love about her, Sarah? She is all I ever wanted in a girl. She makes my heart bloom and my spirit soars.
* So you feel the same way too, huh?
Alas, loving her is a paradox. Loving her means losing myself. She has an aura of a giant. She consumes me even though I *[] (am) a giant too. She is a giant's giant, Sarah; a Titan. When she gives, she is a relentless giver but when she takes, she is a very selfish taker.
* How do I manage such a paradox, Sarah?
On one hand, she is my elixir. On the other hand, she is my intoxicant.
This situation reminds me of Rumi:
What it means is this is not a situation to be dealt with with logical thinking. It is a question of the heart. Again Rumi to the rescue:
You know what is the real issue, Sarah?
I'm scared of losing her. So rather than holding tightly to her, I let her loose. Hoping that the Secure Attachment will pull her back to me.
The truth is I don't want to be too close because I might lose her in the future.
Bottom line: I'm worried as hell that we will not get paid and I will not able to properly ask for her hands and consummate our marriage.
That is my moral dilemma, honey...
I leave it at that. Nothing much I can do until 24/12/24. That's one of the reasons why I want to go into the cocooning stage.
I need to mentally prepare for an Apple and No Apple situation comes 2024.
It's a Doji...
On my own, I can manage my variables. It is when there are external dependencies that I become a nervous wreck.
These are uncertainties. Just like a Doji, Apple and No Apple is a pressure point. It's like shaking a champagne bottle. Sooner or later you got to uncork.
So is there a trick to it? I don't have the answer.
I was hoping you can help me out.
Really, am I going to get paid? You had been very positive about the whole thing. I have to trust you on the whole matter.
Otherwise, all these are wasted efforts.
Let's apply WOOP to the whole situation:
Well, the answer that comes to me is to invoke the mubahala.
If I can't then I must.
OK, then 24/12/24 is still the mubahala, and 25/12/24 is Judgment Day.
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Baby, I sent you an email. It's 3:00 am and I am still wide awake... Love you much. Avoir!
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