In the end, we are what we believe. So if I don't believe in anything, nothing is real.
I just follow to where the arguments lead. As it is I let my mind decide. My job is to write the whole experience as it unfolds.
If I choose not to believe, then nothing is real.
So instead of questioning the truth, I just simply write what is in my mind.
Why question when there is no answer to the question?
We can make assumptions but beyond perspectives and opinions, there is nothing.
I can draw a conclusion but that conclusion is not absolute.
What I can do then is simply live my life without ever reaching a conclusion.
We like to say that there is an Ultimate Truth to the big questions. But the big questions are questions that we have to answer within our limited capacity of that time.
If by then we know nothing, then the answer is there's nothing. Hence, the answers to the big questions are never definite. They are pretty much dependent on how much faith we put towards what we know.
After all these years, I can say that I know there is God and He is fair. It could be that there is no God and I am being delusional.
Therefore it is not about the Truth but rather what is useful. That is the basis of subscribing to a belief.
That is a possibility that there is no God. However, that is not a useful belief. Hence, I believe there is God because that is a useful belief.
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After I discovered the 3 Theta Waves, I no longer have the desire to listen to anything that is within the Beta Wave range.
I like staying in Theta. I also like to stay with my thoughts and write them away. I know they are not the truth. I just like writing these thoughts away.
Therefore, there is no purpose for me to continue writing other than the act of writing itself.
Like I said, we are not dealing with the absolute here. I am spending time doing it because it is pleasurable.
Don't expect any value from my action. It is totally out of personal satisfaction.
Look at a stamp or coin collector. What is his value? None other than personal satisfaction. The same goes with a butterfly collector.
I am doing what I am doing from the sheer delight of writing my thoughts away. There is no value, especially if whatever I write doesn't mean anything.
It is only a hobby that only I can appreciate. There is nothing significant about what I write.
In that sense, I am nobody significant.
Therefore I decided to be significant only to myself. I want to just live a solitary life so that I can enjoy the luxury of time that was given to me.
I had delivered my message. It may not mean anything to anybody. But if all my life I am a devoted Believer, then all the while what matters is whether God accepts my offerings.
That's all to it. I had delivered my part of the deal. If there is God and as I believe that God is fair, it is a matter of time for me to collect my rewards.
If there is no God, then I decided that all I want is to live a healthy and happy life. That is taking the matter into my own hands. I don't need God to be healthy and happy.
It is not something I can decide right away. Like Apple and No Apple, God and No God is not absolute. Thus, it is a question not worth answering. At least until there is a piece of clear evidence available.
So I am taking the attitude that I believe there is God because it is useful to believe in God although I will never know the truth until the day I die.
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