31/7/21 ^^^I just realized how important it is to have positive thoughts

 Lunch was great,

I had a bowl of oatmeal, 2 curry puffs, and a chicken wing.  Very satisfying indeed.

It's important that I am aware that I did eat sugar and flour today.  The amount is manageable

After lunch, I feel very alert.

So now 1 am listening to Best Jazz Pianists (100 Original Recordings).

My thought does try to wonder to some negative thinking.  I steer it back to remain positive.  It helps much by listening to jazz.

Well, maybe a little bit of negativity.  I was thinking that Pal nearly hustled me to write a book with him being the coauthor without him doing jack squat.  Luckily that didn't happen.  It almost caused my mania to relapse.

I guess, Pal served the purpose of getting me to tell my story in the podcast.  That was the closure for me.  It was a good closure; goodbye to Bipolar and goodbye to earning a living.  That was in 2020.  I would say 2020 is still my best year ever.  It's a Doji.

2020 is the end of my first 21 years cycle.  The timing is perfect.  2021 is the beginning of the next 21 years cycle.  I should be progressing from strength to strength.

Let's look at what 2021 brought me so far:

This Year's Achievement:

• Won Gold Walk/Run Interval, 10 loops - 13/4/21 (1st Ramadan)
• Won Bronze Overall Weight Reduction, 79 kg - 21/4/21 (9th Ramadan)
• Water Only Fast PR, 11 days - 23/4/21 (11th Ramadan)
• Can wear ALL pants again - 3/5/21 (21st Ramadan)
• NO SPOOK this Ramadan
• Ran 8 km at a go

I already beat 2020 with my half-year achievements:

The year I won E.L.S. medals and all those nice things that that happened in this year for me including:

• KL Walk with Azzue
• The Podcast
• Free 100 GB Google Drive
• New Laptop
• Train the Trainer Certification
• Coursera Certifications
• Star Newspaper Interview
• Completion of Nautica X
• Biden/Harris Victory etc. etc.

I still got 5 months to make this my best year ever.  Honorable mentions include:

• Discovered Bruce Lipton
• Kista's Quotes and Krista's Collection 
• Discovered Theta Waves
• Discovered Jazz; Best Jazz Pianists and Joey Alexander
• Discovered that I am a self-replicating, self-directed, super-smart, bio-computer
• Attempt to hit 59 kg
• Attempt to run 10 km every week
• Attempt to run 10 km with BJ
• Started SWEE PAWM
• Discovered Micro Workouts
• Discovered Nutritional Yeast
• Started Veni, Vidi, Vici
• Started Elliptical Interval and Jump Rope

OK let's make 2021 a better year than 2020.  From there every year is a progression from the previous year.

To do that, I need to keep reinventing myself.

mm