In the end, all these thoughts like all thoughts that are not substantiated with sound evidence are nothing more than perspectives and opinions. Even if I had provided proofs upon proofs to support my reasoning, I don't consider my writing as the Absolute Truth.
Personally, I will not look back at what I had written three months in the past. As far as I am concerned all the thoughts that I had were just snapshots in time. What I write is nothing more tha[t] (than) my perspective from where I stand AT THAT TIME.
As I mentioned, the whole thing is a sieving process. There are hits and misses. Therefore I as the *[the] originator of my own thoughts will exercise caution when assessing the content of my writing.
* Yes Sarah, I take the ownership.
What I am doing is just writing whatever comes to mind. These are moments in time as I propel forward. I still have to assert that I have a mental condition and that might affect my perspectives in dealing with various issues.
We have to account for that possibility. Just like we have to account that in the past, there were very influential people who were mentally ill. Still, people by the billions CHOOSE to believe in them.
Therefore I'm not going to judge the thoughts that pass through me. As a writer, I simply write. I am merely an executioner.
However, if I am to judge my thoughts at present, I say they are thoughts of a person who is thinking. The question is, am I mentally capable to come up with rational thoughts?
The answer is perhaps not.
Therefore, what I write is the world as I see it from my lenses. It is not the truth. There is no Absolute Truth anyway. However. as a free man, I have the liberty to express my thoughts and I do it in writing.
As it is, these are the thoughts that come to me. Therefore I own these thoughts. Are the thoughts the Truth? No, it is not. As I said, it is a perspective from one independent thinker. Whether that thought holds water is pretty much dependent on the content and context of the writing. Bear in mind I have a mental disorder. Therefore these are the perspective of a person with a mental disability.
Thus these thoughts are [are] not about being the Truth but rather a glimpse of the world as I see it.
Here is the whack at the side of the head; I think after looking at what I wrote, I don't think there is any rationalization to my thoughts. They are just thoughts. Like a piece of art, it exists because somebody created it. The artwork may not have a purpose at all.
From the mainstream perspective, my writing may not have any meaning at all.
For all intent and purposes, it could just be a case of hypergraphia. Therefore the only meaning it has is the meaning it gives to me. To the observer, it may be a work of a genius or it could be nothing more than a product of a delirious mind.
I am not here to decide. My job is to do. I'm not here to sell you anything. I just BE by BEcoming what I am meant to be; a runner who writes and a writer who runs.
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